Next Big Event??

In last 23 years, I always had something in my mind. Something that was supposed to happen a year or two down the line. Something that was supposed to change my life, if not forever, for at-least the coming year. Something that needed preparation. In childhood it was annual exam. Later, it was admission to a good College. Then it was finding a nice job. But now I feel really strange. Now, I really miss that feeling. That feeling of some big upcoming event that can change my life.

There were new books to read and new problems to solve every year. New teachers, new classmates and new lessons. Now life is somewhat monotonous. There is nothing exciting in life for coming few years. Nothing that have potential to change my life forever. I realize I was getting everything cooked and dried till now. There were things that were already planned. School and College and all. From now on, I need to decide myself what I want to do in future. I am supposed to create those Big Events for myself.

This is strange. I never thought life can be like this. Although decisions are what make us humans different from Computers. But its really difficult. Is this freedom?? I will be responsible for my failures now. Even earlier I was, but I always have option to blame others or the system for the miseries of life. Parents and teachers were always there to decide on my behalf.

I have an option to kill few more years refusing to take a stand like others in my generation. Or, I can become socially awkward and criticize everything and everyone around. But I decide to choose the third option. Pretend to be confused. And ignore the fact that now I am responsible for my actions and even my actions can harm others.

Am I going through what they call “Quarter Life Crisis”??But I am happy. I just cannot choose. Am I turning into a Robot?? But ignoring everything is also a choice. I may be on self destruction mode but I have chosen this. Thank God! At-least I am human.

Humans cannot be happy or sad for a long time. The situation is going to change soon. Some disaster, disease or a girl (J) will strike soon. This time I will face everything unprepared. 

Computers and Humans are Different

With a new processor in market every year we are making our computers and our technology more advanced. The advancement is all about making computers faster, more reliable , making them understand humans better, play with them, make them entertain us and all.

Only things in which computers differ from humans is that they cannot think and cannot take any decision they are not programmed for. But there are things in which they are better than humans. They are faster, reliable, won’t get tired, don’t need breaks every hour, never try to avoid work etc. Today we have designed them to do almost every work humans can do. In today’s world we have a lot of work to finish in a very limited time so obviously computers come to our rescue and help us in completing more work in less time in a very efficient manner.

So we are making our computers more human friendly and trying to put in them the things in which they lack. We have equipped them with artificial intelligence. We have even programmed computers to take some particular type of decisions and made them respond to some feelings too(not commands) like humans. So we have supplied them the ‘feelings’ and ‘decision making’ they lack in. But still to work with computers we have to behave with them the way they expect that is the way we have programmed them or a typical computer way. Now they have become a part of our lives and we are spending a lot of time with them and during this time we have to deal with computers in their language i.e we deal with only the feelings they understand and give them commands in a way they want. Its becoming our habit and now we started dealing with humans the same way and expect them to respond in a similar manner.

Obviously to compete in today’s world even humans need to be more faster, reliable and accurate or may be feelingless like computers. Imagine in nearby future we will even forget(in work pressure even now we do) that we are human and then a computer will remind us that we are humans. Like if you are working continuously for hours a message will pop up on your screen saying “ Hi! You had already worked for four hours, now u should have a break. Go and grab something to eat and stretch your limbs. Should I play some soft music for u? ”.

This way we are not only playing with our health but also loosing our feelings and some of our human virtues. We are now good at work. We are faster , accurate and reliable in our particular fields but are not good humans anymore. We can fight for every single thing and no human can be trusted so easily . We are getting too selfish and we call it “professionalism”.

But this is obvious because creating professionals is the aim of modern education not good humans. We are never tested for any human values but for accuracy and speed. Today even “Social Work” is a professional course.